Ouu guys, let’s talk FEAR!! Ahhhhhh, that word or the thought of it has me in complete shambles. It’s the worst in my opinion. If anything can have the power to debilitate you mentally, it’s fear. – Of course, that doesn’t go without saying that we ultimately have the power over our lives and that is to be discussed.

By the time you all read this post, I will have participated in a project photoshoot. Pretty cool right? I think so! – I decided to start writing a portion of this piece earlier on, while my feelings were raw and my stomach in complete knots.

A Photo Shoot You Say?

Yes really! About a month ago, a friend of mine invited me to participate in a photoshoot to showcase the beauty and diversity of black women.

Fear crept in from the moment I received the invite. Me? Was she really inviting me? Of course she was inviting me or I wouldn’t have gotten a message. Duhhhh.

I don’t remember where I was when I received the message, but right away I questioned myself whether I should do it or not. I even messaged my friends for advice, also questioned myself:

• Am I qualified for this?
• Am I even the definition of beauty?
• I haven’t even achieved my body goals yet.

In the end, I chose yes. Of course I wanted to participate in such an amazing project with beautiful women. I wanted to step out of my comfort zone. Which brings us here.

The Day Of

Days prior I start psyching myself out. Maybe I shouldn’t go, maybe I should just say I’m no longer available. But who was I kidding? I wasn’t doing much of anything.

On my way there I was ready to be in tears, heart racing, hands sweaty, I was ready to throw up. But you know what you guys? I showed up for myself. And showing up had given by one of the best experiences I have ever had in 2020 and in life.

You see, if I had allowed fear to fully take over my mind, I never would have gone and would have missed out on an opportunity to meet such amazing women with magical vibes. I’m so glad I pushed through. Though fear can be such a scary attribute of life, when we rise above it, we can live such wonderful experiences.

The edited photos have not been released yet, but I will definitely be sharing them when they do. In the meantime, some lovely ladies took some photos of me on my phone and they turned out so well, so I just have to share.

Before I end this post, I have a question for you: In what ways has fear debilitated you? And how were you able to overcome it? And that’s all for now. Until next time beautiful souls, find your source of your euphoria.